Those of you that know me, know I have MS and a degenerative bone disease. 99.9% of the time no one would know there is a problem. I think I manage my day to day life fairly well - with very little inability to do what I need/want to do. However - recently it's been getting harder. I went to the eye doctor on Saturday - and the "health" part of the exam didn't go so well. You know, where they look at your eyes, test them for glaucoma, macular degeneration and other eye diseases? Well - I out right failed one of the tests. So - I have to go back in a month - get my eyes dilated and do the test again- if I fail it again I get sent on to a specialist.
Under normal circumstances I wouldn't be too worried - the doctor stated that the next time I could pass with flying colors - and this could be just some weirdness going on and nothing to worry about. However - yesterday I had a GAWD AWFUL headache that kept me in the bed all afternoon - and I felt like I had been hit by a Mack Truck. My body just HURTS. This morning I can't keep hold of anything. Everything I touch I either drop or knock over. That's not good. That's a sign that MS is fixin' to rear it's ugly head and I could be headed for a bad exacerbation.
We can't have this. I have a grand baby to love. Seriously. I don't have time to have a problem. He needs his Granny. And his Granny needs him.
I also am depressed. I know it and yet I can't seem to do anything about it. I don't know why. I just am. I want to find a bed and crawl in it. Pull the covers over my head and hide from the world. I just am not happy.
So enough whining for one day. I'm sorry this isn't an interesting or fun entry. It just is what it is.
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