I Suppose....

I suppose in the grand scheme of things - my life is not so bad. I live in land locked Indiana. I didn't get hit by a Tsunami. We get little shakers of earthquakes every once in a blue moon -we get massive Tornado's this is true. But when we get a tornado - it doesn't affect the entire country. It doesn't cause a nuclear plant to start a melt down that could have global effects. It doesn't kill THOUSANDS of people. It doesn't cause an entire country to stop in it's tracks and wonder ...WTF?

I whine and bitch and moan and groan about my job and my kids and my own (what seems so petty now) issues - when the people of Japan are mourning the loss of their lives. Even if they weren't killed or hurt - their lives will never be the same. It is heart breaking.

I suppose when I stop and think about it - my life is pretty good. I have a husband who loves me. I have a job I love ( even if I feel like I'm just pushing papers around). I have kids who are okay. Yes - they all have issues of their own, yes one of them nearly took his own life, but they aren't fighting cancer, they aren't confined to a wheel chair, they aren't having seizure after seizure, they are able to speak to me ( even if I do want to smack their smart mouths some times) and even say "I love you" and mean it sometimes. I have a handful of really great friends - that I know I could count on no matter what. I have lots of people that I find to be interesting and fun and enjoy getting to know. I have the physical ability to do the things I love; play my piano, sew, paint, hold and love my sweet grandson. . . and if I would get off my duff I could probably lose some of this nastiness called fat. I only have myself to blame for how large I've gotten. ( well - and a little thing called MS and a degenerative bone disease that makes it difficult to MOVE with any sort of expectation of burning calories. But none the less, that scoop of blueberry pie ice cream isn't helping either.)

I suppose in the grand scheme of things, I'm a pretty lucky girl. I have a roof over my head, food on my table, clothes on my back, and while I might not have piles of money - we do okay.

I suppose in the grand scheme of things - I should count my blessings. I know it could change at any minute. While it might not be a real natural disaster - I've had an emotional Tsunami of sorts. I will try to see the good in things instead of focusing on the bad.

Thank you dear friend Tracy for opening my eyes.