It seems like I get in a groove and things are going well - and then BLAMMO something happens to eff it all up. It's usually some big dramatic family thing - and of course this time was no exception. I will just say - it's really tough having a bipolar son. I don't know any other way to say it but that. It's tough. And it's heart breaking. And I haven't figured out how to manage the stress of it yet.
And this diabetes thing is strictly for the birds. No matter what I do...how I eat...how or what medicine I take - I can't get it under control. I feel like shit 99% of the time.....if the sugar levels aren't high and making me confused and sweaty and have a headache from hell -then they are low and I'm shaking and dizzy and feel drunk and like I'm going to pass out. My stomach hurts all the time - I'm so thirsty I can't stand it...and my eyes are really blurry and fuzzy. The medicine is making me gain weight. It has to be the medicine - because my diet is really strict and I know I'm taking in way less food than I was before - and I'm eating so much healthier. I have actually walked some with my husband in the last week - and while it's not a marathon it's more than I've done in years so I shouldn't be gaining. And yet...I am.
FML.
On a brighter note - I have this money in my wallet burning a hole strait through it. It's my winnings from Vegas - and I am trying to find a way to spend it. I have lots of ideas - I just haven't settled on one yet. I'm thinking frivolous things that I normally wouldn't be able to do - so...if you have ideas I'm open for them.
I hope if there is anyone at all out there still checking in on me that you are hanging in there - I miss my little corner of the world.
Speaking of which...what do you think of the new digs? My friend Michelle who is FANTASTICALLY talented and smart - is working on making this a newly decorated place. Let me know what you think...and if'n you are of the notion - I'd be happy to hook you up....I'm sure she'd be happy to decorate for you too!.
See ya.
I'm so happy you found someone to help you spruce up the place; I know you'd wanted to for a while.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry about the difficulties with your son. I will keep you both in my prayers. I hope you find some peace.
I'm not big on shopping or spending, so I can't think of anything fun for the money. I'd probably just pay bills with it. I'm pretty boring that way.
And, oh, the medical issues. The commercials all make it look so eary, don't they? Transitions suck. There's just no other way to say it. I will keep my fingers crossed that you find a new sense of stability soon.
Yes, I'm still here.
Oh, and it looks great, by the way. Sorry I neglected to say that. I especially love your personalized banner. I keep meaning to do one of those but just haven't gotten around to it. Yours is beautiful.
ReplyDeleteThe place looks good. :)
ReplyDeleteSorry to here about your problems with medication. Your either on different meds to my wife or having a different reaction. Her sugar levels seem to be under control and she is losing weight.
I will keep you in my prayers.