When I started this I was going to be really good about writing daily - and about posting in a really timely fashion - and I was going to never miss more than a day or -two tops.
But the mess that is my life is getting so out of control I can't even think.
People that I thought were my friends are clearly not my friend. People that I thought would never ever in a million years do something hurtful to me have stabbed me in the heart. People that I thought could NOT care less are proving to be the ones I can absolutely count on.
Up is down.
In is out.
Black is White.
Sane is Crazy.
I am trying to wrap my head around the mess but the truth is - I'm hanging on by my fingernails. Barely.
Just barely.
Everything upside down? Sounds like Wonderland. I guess that's why I love that story so much.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for the pain you've gone through. It's so sad that as people change they choose to be unkind to others. I wish I could say I'm innocent of this, but I'm not.
I hope things are getting clearer about who is safe for you and who isn't. Staying on top of relationsip dynamics is so tough.
Hanging on just barely is still better than not hanging on.
Try to be kind to yourself. Do not allow others into your spere who are hurtful. Kick them out if they sneak in. You are worth protecting. You are in charge of your boundaries.
And maybe try to find some time to do something special for youself. Something that seems like an indulgence. It will help you value yourself.
Sending a prayer your way and many happy thoughts.
I know it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel right now, but know that you truly do have people that care for you. Also know that the things you are doing are changing lives in the most amazing ways...in ways that only YOU can do!
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