I'm just going to jump right in.
You know what I hate? Double standards. I hate double standards with a royal purple passion. You know - the " Do as I say not as I do" syndrome? You know - where you get called on the carpet for something that the person doing the calling is notoriously bad about? Yeah - that.
It could be that the person doing the calling is just on my last nerve to begin with, I'm not sure - but clearly I am on hers. And while there was a time where I thought we were pretty close - I now feel like we are so far from close we are on different planets.
That makes it hard - because I sorta kinda work for her. Not as in FOR her - like she is my boss and signs my paychecks- but she does rely on me. Like - I am her "administrative assistant" in a way and so I sorta kinda have to make sure she is happy.
It used to be that I felt like I did a pretty good job. It used to be that I felt like she was pretty okay with how I do my job. But now - I feel like no matter what I do it either isn't good enough, isn't CORRECT, or in some way shape or form is just not right. And I am about over it. I have this really bad feeling that in my upcoming performance review -I'm going to hear about this. I just hope when I lay my cards on the table it is taken seriously and not just dismissed as it was last time.
So - how sick of hearing me bitch, moan, groan and complain are you? Pretty sick I bet. Sorry about that.
I will try not carry this on forever and a day. I promise.